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optimism is really a scary thing at times. it may help you to minimize your sadness and help you look at the bright side of things.
but perhaps sometimes being too optimistic will also lead to one hiding from the truth and giving himself excuses to avoid reality.

just like wad happened ytd, having a c6 for hcl was definitly way below of wad i expected of myself.
but again i tried to be optimistic and defnitly. . . the pain subsided for a while. just try harder this year; its not the end of the world; etc
but does all this statments heal my wounds permanantly? will they allow me to reach my target in the end? or they are just excuses that i want to give myself to make myself feel better for the time being. .

being optimistic is a good thing, but being TOO optimistic may not be.